Twists and Turns

While you are too preoccupied in either savouring the gift of life or dealing with its daily warfare, one fine day you’ll find yourself waking up flabbergasted on how things and people around you have changed tremendously. More often than not, time flies left unnoticed. When I think about it, I still couldn’t reckon the fact that I’m turning thirty years old this year. Looking back on my life’s unimaginable cache of stories, I am probably one of the youngest people on earth to have experienced the most astonishing twists and turns in my barely thirty years of living.

To those who were kept in the dark (unintentionally), I had unplanned pregnancy just a few months after I successfully passed the Dental Board Examination in June 2001. I can still vividly remember how terrified I was to break the news to my family. Of all folks, I am the least expected to commit such disgraceful mistake. It took me some time to ultimately surrender to my fate and gather enough strength to come out in the open. And it turned out to be the most difficult moments of my life. Just envision how infuriated my family were during those times and you’ll know what kind of ordeal I went through. But no matter how exasperated they were out of disappointment, they eventually allowed me to tie the knot with my first forbidden love for the sake of the budding innocent life inside my womb. I felt a twinge of relief after my impromptu wedding but never did I imagine how intricate it was to be entangled with the wrong person. Right then and there, I was left in the lurch without a choice but to face every single day as never-ending struggle.

Scarcely three months after I gave birth to my precious little angel, I decided to seek for a job abroad out of extreme anxiety. Ironically, I found an odd opportunity in Taiwan and I was desperate enough to accept the offer at once. That was one of the most crucial decisions of my life. If I don’t take action hastily, my awful baby and I will have to beg my family to take us back in their loving arms to be able to recuperate from stumbling upon a rough path.

Braving the storms, I took immense accountability for the consequences of the biggest gaffe I have ever done. I did my best to convince myself that life isn’t that bad after all. Being scrutinized, judged, and ridiculed is but just a part of the vindictive society we live in. What matters is I have been blessed with a priceless bundle of joy that instantaneously became the pillar of my strength. With the most wonderful gift of my own flesh and blood and with God’s unconditional love, I was dogged to surmount every stumbling block the world throws me.

During my stay in Taiwan, I endured horrifying adjustment and excruciating pain. I invested so much of my life, my emotions, and my dreams to keep my family intact but to no avail. After some time, I finally woke up from harsh reality in spite of choosing to stay blindly in love for almost a decade. Yes, it took me ages to realize that my estranged husband is a hopeless case but since then, nothing stopped me from restoring my sanity. Subsequent to being fortified with ample time to give it a careful consideration for the sake of my child and the vows I made before God, I determinedly relinquish my ever-turbulent marital relationship for the reason that I find no worth from holding on anymore. There’s simply no turning back and it was one of the most significant verdicts I have ever made in my whole life.

Conclusively, I filed an annulment case in 2006 and I was granted with a favourable judgment early of last year. Going through all the gruelling court appearances, giving testimonies, and losing huge sum of funds are remarkably laudable. I am very fortunate to be given a second chance to find the best partner and live a blissful, well-structured family life I have always dreamed of.